Love Unrestrained

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I want a love that transcends
Vows
Rings
Ceremony
Honeymoon
Ritual
Something old
Something blue
White picket fence
House with 2 car garages
Golden retriever
Carriages
The American dream

I want a love that cannot be contained
Not even in a room with
Bling’d out new pussy
Distracting hips
Licked lips
Big guns
Even jeans with juicy bulges
Can keep us from it

A love that inspires
A captivating love
A love much like a ray of sun dancing over rippling waters
A love that is so late, but you are so glad you are ready
A love unrecognizable at first glance
A sacrificing love happy to give it all
A love with the desire to learn from its subject
A love willing to admit “I don’t deserve you”

A love
Not patronizing
Not proud
Nor lies
A love only stealing kisses while you sleep
Not your identity
A love willing to bare the naked truth
Free falling knowing the safety net is you
A love changing in shape
To accommodate all that you know and are soon to find out
A love free to go
But for reasons you can’t even explain
Stays around nosey with intrigue
A love not requiring the utterance of the words
“I love you”

 

*throwback* originally posted on blogspot 2/15/2014

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“The Picture of Dorian Gray” Book Review

9780375751516I finished reading this book last week. It took me some time to get my thoughts together on what I felt about this book. The story is about a young very attractive man, named Dorian Gray, who sits for his portrait to be painted by Basil. After being influenced by the philosophies of the painter’s friend, Lord Henry, Dorian begins to be troubled by the reality that his beauty will one day wither away. He becomes jealous of the painting and unknowingly casts a spell on himself and the painting by wishing that the painting will grow old while he remains young and beautiful.

Dorian seemed to be an empty vessel not having ideas or beliefs of his own. It was easy for Lord Henry’s unorthodox philosophies to negatively influence Dorian shaping his ideas, opinions and character. After Dorian hurt someone very dear to him, he later notices that the painting has altered in its appearance. With every evil act and as time passed the painting altered to display his true demons and aging while he stayed young and attractive.

This book was written in the 19 century, so the writing was wordy and a bit challenging at times. I found myself stopping to look up words to get an understanding of what was being said.  The middle portion of the book was the hardest to get through. Around chapter 11 I almost stopped reading due to boredom. Oscar Wilde unnecessarily elaborated on insignificant aspects of Dorian’s life while leaving out vital parts of his life that would have painted a better picture of how far he slid down the rabbit hole of evil.

Overall, Lord Henry proved to be the most interesting character in this book with his many interesting epigrams on life. Dorian was annoying with how easily he was manipulated. One thing I found very interesting was how Dorian attempted to confess, towards the end, some of the evil things he was doing. Those closest to him refused to believe him because they couldn’t pass over his good looks to see his true character. This theme in the book made me think of how superficial society is today and how a pretty appearance easily garners praise without deep examination of the character.  I gave this book 3 stars out of 5 because I found it to be wordy and very boring. In my opinion, it took Oscar Wilde too long to get to the point and the ending was blatantly obvious.

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2016 Wrap up/2017 Reading Resolutions

Last year, I did not participate in the Goodreads reading challenge. However, I did keep up with my reading. In 2016, I read 14 books. They are:

  • Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison – 4 stars out of 5 – audio book
  • The Martian by Andy Weir – 5/5 – audio book
  • The Irresistible Inheritance of Wilberforce by Paul Torday – 5/5- paperback
  • We Were Liars by E. Lockhart – 2/5 – hardback/library
  • Vengeance Road by Erin Bowman – 5/5 – hardback
  • Soundless by Richelle Mead – 3/5 – hardback – review
  • Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel – 5/5 – hardback/library
  • The Humans by Matt Haig – 5/5 – hardback/library – review
  • A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness – 3/5 – hardback/library
  • The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker  – 4/5 – hardback/library – review
  • Mr. Penumbra’s 24-Hour Bookstore by Robin Sloan – 3/5 – hardback/library
  • Kindred by Octavia Bulter – 5/5 – paperback
  • The Girl With All the Gifts by M.R. Carey – 3/5 – paperback
  • Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon – 5/5 – paperback

The favorite book of the year was “The Humans” by Matt Haig. There were so many quotable phrases. It was refreshing and comical to get a look at humans from an alien’s point of view. I love it. I can’t stop thinking about it. I ended up buying my own copy. The worst book of the year was “We Were Liars” by E. Lockhart. I hate this book with a passion. This book attempted to be suspenseful and did a horrible job. I just wanted it to be over. I hated every single person in this book. It was painful to read. The only reason why I finished it was because it was a short read.

There is a big no reading gap in 2016 from June to December. TV took over my life during that time. I DNF (did not finish) “The Bone Clocks” by David Mitchell. It was entirely too slow for me. I own this book. So, I plan to go back to finish it in 2017. I also DNF “Neverwhere” by Neil Gaiman. I just wasn’t in the mood for this kind of book at the time. I plan to check this out from the library again this year to give it another try. I put down “Jane Eyre” and “the long way to a small angry planet” as well. I really don’t know why I put them down because I was enjoying them. I definitely plan on finishing them in 2017.

In 2017:

  1. I want to continue to utilize my local library.
  2. I want to dedicate one month to reading Toni Morrison’s books.
  3. As stated above, I want to finish books I DNF.
  4. I want to start reading trilogies.
  5. I want to give Harry Potter another chance.
  6. I want to read some memoirs and/or nonfiction books.
  7. I want to read more adult/literary fiction.
  8. I want to post more book reviews and writings to this blog.
  9. I want to read 25 books in 2017. Below find some books I want to read this year.
  • The Unseen World by Liz Moore – book review
  • The Book of Harlan by Bernice McFadden
  • Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind by Yuval Harari
  • The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
  • Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo
  • Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo (A Sequel to Six of Crows)
  • Vicious by V.E. Schwab (book 1)
  • Sula by Toni Morrison
  • Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison
  • Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi – book review
  • The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead – book review
  • Behold the Dreamers by Imbolo Mbue
  • We Are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinsonbook review
  • The Sun Is Also a Star by Nicola Yoon
  • A Darker Shade of Magic by V.E. Schwab (book 1)
  • A Gathering of Shadows by V.E. Schwab (book 2)
  • The Mothers by Brit Bennett

To name a few…

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Slow Reader, Low Rating

Pacing is very vital when it comes to reading a novel. Pacing can make or break your reading experience. I have three huge hindrances when it comes to reading: 1) not having enough focus time to read. 2) reading interruptions. 3) I’m a slow reader. I’m starting to believe that these issues are causing me to rate books lower than they deserve. I find that I have a more rewarding reading experience when I have hours of free time to just read with no interruptions. If I don’t have the time to read for long periods of time, I eventually get frustrated with the book, the world, the ideas. Due to the interruptions, the pacing of the book seems choppy and I can never get a good flow going which is not the book’s fault. Often, I DNF (do not finish) complicated long books because I just don’t have the time or the focus to devote to them. This causes me to miss out on many rewarding reading experiences.Then after reading a book for so long, I get frustrated and I end up giving the book a low rating even though it was me who needs the poor reading grade.

I need to think about this book rating thing in a different way or just not rate books at all.

“The Age of Miracles” Review

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I found out about this book from Jen Campbell on Youtube. In the video, she and Sanne were giving apocalyptic fiction recommendations. I trust Jen’s recommendations because she recommended “The Beauty” and I ended up loving it as well. Apocalyptic fiction is becoming one of my favorites. “The Age of Miracles” is labeled as an adult book even though the main character is only 11 years old. This book follows Julia through her experience with school, family, and ‘the slowing’ plaguing the earth. The earth’s rotation slows down and we get to see how it affects the earth and those occupying it. All kinds of ripple effects occur with the animals, people getting sick due to the earth’s faulty gravitational pull, and crops because of the lack of sunlight. The people start to panic and react to the long nights and long days.

I flew through this book. I’m a slow reader and it only took me 3 days to read this novel. That is fast for me. The pacing was perfect. It was interesting to see how people changed as the minutes were added to each day. New relationships were created, old relationships died away, and strange behavior ensued. I enjoyed the different characters, even the ones that annoyed me. The author’s obsession with eucalyptus trees was kind of strange. The trees were referenced like on every other page. That became kind of redundant, but other than that this book is a solid 4 stars out of 5.